Thursday, August 6, 2009

I know I haven't posted in a long time.

Things are... different now. I've been in a bit of a slump for the better part of 3 weeks, and I can't seem to shake it. Part of it is a new obsession with worrying about bed bugs. I spent a night in a Bristol hostel and worried constantly about bringing one of those stupid critters home with me. Now, I haven't any real proof that I did bring anything, nor did I find any evidence of bugs at the hostel, but I've managed to work myself into such a state anytime I need to go to bed - I feel things crawl on me, and I'm sure they are imagined... but last week it was so bad I feel as though I'm grinding my teeth at night... which I think I am. Now, keep in mind that I'm super clean. I cleaned and vacuumed the matress and all the sheets and duvet and pillows and cleaned and vaccumed and bleached the inside of the box spring. I checked every inch of the matress and box spring and found no evidence... but still, I worry. It's gotten to the point where I feel anxious about going to bed... which isn't a good feeling. I need to relax, but I just don't know how... Hopefully within a week I'll have rid myself of this feeling... but I don't know how. I feel as though I should bring in a huge box of spiders and let them loose in my room to catch the little buggers.... but I don't like spiders! Yeeesh.

The second thing that is stressing me out is another relentless search for a new flatmate. We've been advertising the room for 6 weeks now, and it seems as though all the people show up within 3 days and want viewings. Very stressful. We've tentatively found a couple who are super nice, and I am hoping and wishing and praying that they want to take it. But the waiting is killing me. Bah.

In the meantime my flatmates mother visited last week, and it was so nice to have a mother figure around. I miss my family a lot sometimes, and I feel as though I haven't made a lot of friends while I've been here. Not like back home. I don't find that I make friends easily, except when I work, and of course, not working right now puts a damper on my social skills. Hopefully I'll be back at work within a month... and my sister is visiting on the 20th, which will be very exciting.

Everything money-wise is going fine. I'm living within my budget and should be able to stretch the cash until the end of September, before I go back to work. If I stay through until next March or April, I should still be able to head home with about $1,500 Canadian, which is very relieving.

As a side, to cheer me and my flatmate whose mother just went home the other day up, we went to see The Ugly Truth at the local theatre. It was a lot of fun and well worth it. Lots of laughs. And Gerald Butler is pretty. In a manly way, of course.

Hopefully over the weekend things will start to put themselves together. I hope.

6 comments:

Arual said...

it must be very scary being in a new town and feeling so alone. You should scour the Internet for social groups you can join...I joined this girls only one here and its great. Once a month there is a book club plus other avtivities throuhout the month (ie. I have done hula hoop lessons, painted pottery, I am going to learn how to pole dance as well as dinner theatre). The nice thing is I go alone so I am forced to put myself out there to meet people. OR maybe you could look into volunteer opportunities. It will look awesome on your resume, you'll feel really good about giving back and you will meet people that way too. I bet the bed bug thing is just stress from feeling anxious and alone. This is such a great opportunity for you to live overseas. Get out there and meet as many people as you can and have as many adventures as you can.

krystalatwork said...

Hey, how are you doing? Haven't heard from you in a while!

Webgrrl74 said...

Did you find a flatmate?? What part of London are you in?

Leanna said...

Yeah we did find flatmates, and they are an awesome couple. I'm really enjoying living with them. Unfortunately they have decided to return to South Africa at the end of October, so the hunt will be on again. At least this time I know that they are responsable enough to search for a flatmate themselves, so I'm not nearly as stressed. I live in South London, in the nice part of Wandsworth. :)

Webgrrl74 said...

Oh good! I am hoping to move there in the spring after I've saved up some coin or secure a good job (not sure which area though).

Leanna said...

Webgrrl - I know a decent amount about South London if you ever want to know in the future for a move. While I know a couple people that live in North London, I don't spent much time there, so I wouldn't be much help. I look forward to hearing about your adventures should you choose to come over here! :)