I am enjoying the texture of stale marshmellows...

I'm kind of glad H isn't staying here permanently. When she left I spent a lot of time wondering what I was going to do without her mindless drama, but since spending some time alone, I've come to realize that I don't enjoy the drama. Her room is still a disaster and I know that I'm going to be asked to bail her out and help her pack/clean. I don't want to. It's actually nice that I'm reasonably busy over the next couple weeks so I don't have to make up excuses not to see her.

I have my own messes to clean up... I don't need her's too.

S lost my memory card. I knew she would. The moment I handed it to her bf to give to her, I thought to myself damn...that's the last time I'm going to see that card... And it was. I'm glad that she put the pictures on her computer so at least I didn't lose those, but that was a nice memory card. It was high-speed and really, the first one I purchased. It has sentimental value. I know she will replace it, eventually, I just wish I had trusted my gut and kept it. From now on, I'll be keeping my memory cards and I will send her the photos. I'm surprising myself as to how pissed I am about her losing it. I know she didn't mean too, but damn, it was mine!

My bank account is sitting surprisingly well for the post-Christmas season. I hate to brag, especially to my, well, scant-broke friends, but I have a decent amount of money - enough to buy, pretty-much anything I want.

K drives me nuts talking about how broke she is constantly. She pulls in around $1,600 a month from the job that we share, plus at least $600 a month at her other job. Yet she's always complaining, complaining, complaining! I just can't see how she is always broke. Her car payments are around $400, rent is $350, plus two phones are $100, bus pass $75, gas is probably $200 a month. Any extras (food, medical stuff, etc) probably run her $300. So, all together that's what, $1,500? Now she's between $10,000 and $15,000 in CC debt, so those minimum payments are probably $300ish (although I think she said she's putting $500 on them) So, even then, even if she is paying out $2,000 a month in bills, she is taking home $200.

The problem is, she's not taking home $200. She's spending it.

Now, I admit, I eat out most days when I work here at the office downtown. Usually runs me between $5 and $20 (depending where I eat, most days it's around $9) and K usually joins me. She usually spends around $7. So, already, she's eating $140 of those dollars every month. Plus, she can be very careless in her spending. When the new IPod touches came out in the fall, she ordered one within days of their release. There goes $450 right there. One afternoon while we were carelessly shopping, she bought a DKNY purse. There goes another $250 there. Now she's decided she wants a Nintendo Wii. That's $300 there. And yet, upon returning to work today from lunch, she states "I can't eat out anymore".

It just doesn't make sense to me! AARRRGHHH!!!

I have to admit, I'm reckless on spending too, but my total monthly bills add up to a whopping $115. A $75 bus-pass and a $40 cell phone bill. That's it. Squat. And I pull in around $1,800 from this job and around $600 from my other job. So that leave me more than $2,000 to do with what I please. So if I go out and buy a $135 Matt & Nat purse (which I loooooove) it's no big deal. I know I can pay with debit and not fear that it's going to come back "insufficient funds".

It just frustrates me that when I try to help her look over her finances or at least let me look at her budget, she declines. I know that not everyone wants help, but I think I could help her, and right now, it's not like she's helping herself at all.

Oh well. I hope she enjoys her new Wii...

Man, i've got to lose some weight. My knees are hurting me. Bad. Boo.

Maybe i'll leave here early. There's nothing for me to do anyways...